Sparkles and sparkling.

2011-01-14T18:41:00.000+08:00

If you guys see this picture, please love it. It's my bored face. Ini muka saya bagi cikgu bila boring.

NYAAAAAAAAAGAGAGA.

Kay, nak amek org dari tekong. Sayonananananana.

MY GORGEOUS HANDPHONE.

2010-12-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hi world, this week has been super tiring. I slept at Mel's place on Monday and Friday, wheeeee~ Sumpah i love being around that small girl. On Wednesday however, i had to do Stocktaking at Lot 1's Cotton On, omg. CO Body so leceh siaaaaaaaa, the panties and bra's like so belambak. And the panties damn hard to rack up. Anyways, i started work at 530 and ended at 4am, sedih. Hahahaha, the only good thing was, I FOUND A PHONE. No one has claimed it yet, so heeheehee i keep ah. The phone was in sucha bad condition. So many scratches, so many PORN and DIRTY messages. Horny bastard. HAHAHA.

Mel's place's like the sex, i can really like feel at home. I love her room, i love her family, i love her and i enjoy every single time we had. I swear, she's like my other half or something. I miss that silly girl already ):

Okay, major news for all of you. I modified my phone! Hehehe, it looks like a princess now. I did it ALL BY MYSELF when i came home in the morning today. My own hard work. Okay, bangge, look at he picture of my new phone! HEHEHE, SO SHINY, I LIKE.

Okay, i wanna tweet and formspring. Mwah, bye.

Oh, my gaji nak masuk. Tak banyak, tapi yay!

2010-11-25T19:08:00.000+08:00

pictures.

2010-11-25T18:45:00.000+08:00

2010-11-07T00:50:00.001+08:00

ALL HAIL QUEEN ASHHY.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!

Hey beautiful! Happy 16th Birthday, i love you. You're awesome, more like an all rounder. Sports, grades, look, personality. Gosh, i'm so proud of my baby girl! Good luck for your O's, can't wait to hug you when you get your good results.

I know sometimes you feel lousy and feel as though everyone else if fcking annoying you or ignoring you. Dont be upset, if ever once you feel like a loser, dont. You're a great person, one that your mother should be so proud of. I'm so grateful to have a friend like you.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ X A GAZILLION YEARS. MWAH.

SALE! (:

2010-11-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

Clearing my closet to earn money and buy my mommah a bag for her birthday.

Sorry, the clothes were previously folded.

*WILL POST ON SHOES AND MORE BAGS SOON.

Studded sling bag, going for $15.
Fits A4!

New with tagging.

White bag, going for $15.
Hard covered bag,with long handle.
No defects at all!

Black toga with gold, going for $20.
Will not bargain, this piece holds sentimental value.

Denim harem pants, going for $15!

Fucking good bargain.

Bought in Korea.

New!

Vintage Denim Dress, going for $8.

Adorable Sleeveless Dress, going for $10.

Bought it in Thailand.

*Comes with Laced Shawl.

FREESIZE.

Adjustable Tube Top, going for $8.

Fits sizes S-L.

New.

Blue Dress, going at $15.

This dress really flatters my body, and it's very comfortable.

*Scrunchy at the back to adjust.

*Has pockets at the sides.

Fits sizes S-M.

Light Coloured Romper, going at $15.

FREESIZE.

NEW!

Dark Blue Romper, going $18.
Fits S-M.
*Full body romper.
NEW!

Pale Purple Tube Maxi, going for $15.

Freesize.
*Sweet, can be worn on weddings, dates.

Orange Dress, selling for $8.

Free Size.

NEW.

Off Shoulder Lace dress, going for $12.

FREESIZE.

Blue Polka Dot Sleeveless Top, selling for $12.

Fits size S.

*Bought in Korea.

Polka Dotted Light Blue Polo tee, going for $8.

Freaking durable and stretchable.

NEW!

Fits size S-M.

PLEASE BUY AND SUPPORT ME, I WANNA GET MY MOMMY A COACH BAG!

KINDLY CONTACT ME ON FACEBOOK OR THROUGH MY TAGBOARD.

<3 YOU (:

Thank you.

It's 4 am, my heart still hurts as hell. Gotta move on.

2010-11-06T04:12:00.000+08:00

The truth is, i just wanna show you that I'm happy. I love you, even when i tell you i dont. I miss you even when the fact is, it is over. I have to respect myself and my decision.

Anyways, i got a tansfer! To plaza sing, i love Husni for helping me, mwahmwahmwah.

Went out with Shaheed for Megamind, he treat me! WHOOOOOOOO~ Anyways, megamind's cute, i remember not paying attention almost throughout the whole movie, just because my fucking fucked up mind was thinking of adib. Ah, i miss you so fucking much, you dont have a fucking clue.

I MADE A VIDEO ON FACEBOOK! HAHAHA, BUT IT'S PRIVATE, CUSTOMISED ONLY SO I CAN SEE, IT'S DAMN RETARDED, SO YOU'E NOT MISSING OUT ANYTHING. Going to take photo of the clothes tmr! Blogsho again on my blog, yay! Whee~

Goodnight people its morning. 4 am. I MUST BE HAPPY.

Habis keje, nothing to do ):

2010-11-03T02:40:00.000+08:00

This was after work yesterday, upon reaching home at about 1 in the morning!

Hehehe, everyone was asleep. So i snap. Last photo, idk why the lips step sexy. HAHAHA!

I JUST TOOK THIS WITH THE WEBCAM, I LOOK FAIR! YAY (:

Okay, im so deprived of sleep lah. Walao. Hahahaha (:

Night.

Yay, i got keje (:

2010-10-30T05:20:00.000+08:00

I GOT A JOB ALREADY, AT COTTON ON! YAY! HOWEVER,I GOT INTO RUBI, AT RAFFLESCITY LINK.

So come and hellohello at me, when you're in town!

Whee~

Syukur alhamdullilah (:

OLD STORY CUT SHORT.

2010-10-30T04:51:00.000+08:00

First two pictures are from Deniza's birthday chalet. I remember rushing home to get her a plastic rose and change from my school uniform. Hahahah.

Below the first two pictures is the day the kids went bowling at orchid country because the alley at safra yishun under renovation, still. It opens on MONDAY! Yay!

Waterfront kids are awesome.

Here was the day i emo and studied fro history and maths, FYI i screwed up my EOY. Hahahahahah (:

OKAY, FROM THIS PICTURE ONWARDS, THERE'S A PUPPETRY-LIKE STORY.

OBSERVER THE LOVE TRIANGLE. HEEHEE.

Yay, everyone loves each other again.

Fron below onwards is the half an hour lepak after my job interview, whee~

Obviously from all the photos you notices, its only me right, thats because right not its 5am and im sleepy so i dont wanna waste my time uploading other people's picture when it's my blog. HEHEHEHEH (:

I'LL BE SELLING MY CLOTHES AND FOOTWEARS IN MY NEXT POST, SO IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, PLEASE KEEP VISITING AND SPAM CLICKING MY ADS AT THE TOP OF MY BLOG.

WTF, SERIOUSLY.

2010-09-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK SIAL NI LAKI?!!!

Afiq cutecute, my ass.
AHHHHH, GILE MAN!

I'm so freaked out.
Okay, nak tdo. Kaki dah gatalgatal balik. BAI.

Salam lebaran, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin (:

2010-09-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

I would like to use this time, before i sleep to do a little apologizing to the people who are dear to me.

Since it's Hari Raya, i would like to seek forgiveness from my family members, again. My parents have been supporting me, in every way. Though most of the times i don't see it,i know they've always supported me and wants nothing but the best for me. I get through everyday with vulgarities and screams, but that's just how my family is. We're so weirdly bonded.

The second person who i would like to apologize to, is Adib. Baby has been there for me seriously through thick and thin. 10 months and he's been there for me in every way possible. I would like to apologize if i have hurt you before, if i have been stubborn throughout, the negligence and the awkward silence. You mean the world to me, you're always pampering me and giving me the best treatment. If i have not been doing the same, i'm sorry. I love you very much.

Third is to my dear girls, LR.:

Amirah, my friend and more for 10 years and counting- I love you so much, though sometimes i dont get you, i always care and hope the best for you. I'm sorry if i always vent my frustrations on you, i know i'm the opposite of you, but that is the main reason why you're my best friend. You make me whole, you cheer me up when im sad and show me things i never knew. I enjoy every minute i spend with you. For these 4 years that we have been the closest whilst growing up, i thank you, for teaching me many weird and memorable things. Aku blom lupe eh, kau tolak aku bile primary 6! Musibot. Hahaha, at least you were my bff while i was in p4-6.

I love you, best friend.

Ashiqin- The sunshine girl for 4 years. I'm sorry if we get into bitchfights, sumpah itu time both of us always sarcastic. You're the only one i malas wanna fight back with. And remaining silent, taught me a lot of things, that it's a million times better than talking back. You seriously taught me how to be happy and have fun, despite your deprived childhood of NO PLAYGROUND! I'm sorry if i've disappointed you or hurt you. I care for you like how best friends should, and i'll always will. Being with you has been wonderful, you're like the right of the all the wrongs and being with a very cheerful and fun person has made my life so wonderful, i'll never ever ever never forget you. I love you, best friend.

Emy- The retard all my life. You've been a retard since e were in kindergarten. I swear instead of apologizing, i wanna kick you. I'm sorry i have only wanted the best for you. As someone who has grown up and lived so close to you, i cant help but regard you as my sister. I'm sorry ive been mean and sarcastic, i just want you to change from a selfish little woman to someone who cares more for others, for a change. I really wish you would treat everyone else who actually cares about you, a lil better.Only then you'll appreciate. I hope you evolve and become a sophisticated retard.

I love you, best friend.

Yes, my sister's confused. She thinks it Deepavali.

Our trip, to Mak Long's hse. Two family.

Abang encem aku sleeping beb.

Gift from my cousin and fam, so sweet kan? (:

LR'S DAY (3/4) Picnic at Waterfront (:

2010-09-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

Lr's day, we went picnicking at Waterfront. Unfortunately however, Ashhy couldnt make it. We still had a bit of fun. Major mad action, then sadness, then joy and laughter. It would have been a great day had ashhy been there, like seriously.

Waiting for buka while we were there was super, cannot tahan! We wanted to eat what we brought so badly. After buka, we played the playground. Wont elaborate, cause i couldnt conquer my phobia there, HEIGHTS. You can see me crying in a few pictures.

Had fun, happy belated Lr's day! And selamat hari raya (:

Going to blog again about raya, toodles(:

2010-09-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Didnt go geylang with baby. Instead, baby came over for buka then straight after eating he went to comex fair ALONE.

The pictures muka mcm legong right. And the hair. so serabai. I have school at 2 tmr sia! Grr. Going to eat then sleep. Hahaha, will blog again tmr or something.

Night everyone.

2010-09-05T03:28:00.000+08:00

I'm going Geylang later in the evening. Most prolly stopping by Suntec again to get Hannan his Nixon earpiece.

Cant wait to camwhore! Ah, burger ramlee and air kathira, HERE I COME!

Okay, this Sept holidays, orang duduk at home, i go school. Rajin nye pasal. I've got another environmental project. And physics class since i dipped down on my grades from a C5 to an E8. EOY must be the best out of all my results because for once, i enjoy studying. Art must also be my main priority this week because aku sumpah, aku nak pergi JAPAN.

My results improve tremendously, English from a C5 to a B4. Mother forever D7. Maths from an F9 to a C5! HOORAY! Since from a C5 to an E8 ): Art from a C6 to a B3. History from an E8 to a B4!

I will improve till i end school. I've got many aims now. One, good results. Two, more exposure. Three, stop smoking like how me and Adib promised each other - ni, Adib maybe fail. And fourth, start being a nice daughter for a start.

Okay, i'm sleepy. Will blog soon, mwah. Goodnight.

SELAMAT SAHUR`ING.

Comex- 4 Sept.

2010-09-05T03:19:00.000+08:00

STANDARD, PAGIPAGI, AKU BLOG MCM ORANG NAK MATI.

Today, i slept and woke up at 1. Mcm babi, i know. After that, i made kuih tart. My kuih tarts are green in colour, nak special kan?! At 5 i started getting ready and left home at 6 to meet Ikhlas, Adib and Hannan at Marina Square. I reached during buka period. Belum jumpa Adib, dah buat dia marah. Alahai. We ate on the floor outside them headed to Suntec for the Comex exhibition. I bought myself a new memory card of rmy camera! *Bows down* So freaking happy, now raya can camwhore.

That's about it. My saturday's boring.

At Suntec, after i bought my new SDHC memory card! Yay, 4gb for only $13.90!

Ikhlas look so cute here! Haha, butch gone bad.

No comment, HAHA!

Hannan seducing Adib.

Muke stop it sey, Hannan. Hahaha!

They acted as a gay couple infront of a photography stall. Sumpah, they made me laugh a lot just now.

Mcm biase, bored. Webbywhore (Y)

2010-09-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

I embarassed myself in the morning assembly today. Ms Yzelman forced me to sing infront the whole freaking school. I cried after that, cause i really hate it when i'm being forced. Have to go down to school on monday and wednesday for environmental stuff again. Shiatz.

Anyway, i hereby declare myself a loser today. So i took pictures of y pathetic boring self while in my red school camp tee. Lagi kental please?

I made adib skip school today but did not meet him. I know, so mean. I might be meting him tmr, hopefully he treats me to dinner cause aku broke, as usual.Oh, did i mention i fucking hate the junior navalites, i heard them talking about me in the toilet. KENTAL LA PLEASE. It was freaking epic when i came out of the cubicle cause those immature bitches literally gagged and pretended to fix their hair. I'm proud of who i am, cause no matter what i do, i'm still going to be judged. Screw you little young asses.

Okay, going to sleep soon since i lack sleep the most.

Goodnight motherfckrs, i really hate my life now.

Surat ibu.

2010-09-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

This is so freaking sad. Minggu ini penuh keinsafan.

Movie in malay.

It's three in the morning.

2010-09-01T03:31:00.000+08:00

It's three in the morning. I've got school in a few hours. It's almost four actually. I had an argument with my sister so i'm staying up. Honestly, i have nothing to do. I love communitychannel on youtube.

Sahur`ing soon. I cant believe my fucking charger's spoilt. Cb.

TEACHERS' DAY 2010!

2010-09-01T03:17:00.000+08:00

Me and Syazwan, before our performance. He's the best partner, i swear! So patient and comprising. Yay,Syazwan!

I just realized Sean in two of the pictures, he clearly stalked me.

Okay, going to bed now. Sleepy, i have loads of other pictures but i shall skip. Night readers.

Sumpah, aku bored.

2010-08-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

Having an MC overrules everything. But having nothing to do while you're boyfriend's asleep, just sucks.

I couldnt go do my hair because my daddy was being mean. That's why my hair look like orangutan's. Hentam uh, what i care. I love adib. Heh.

Okay, selamat berpuasa. Tmr, insyaallah, i post again.

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO DEAR SYIDA (:

I've been missing out.

2010-07-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

LAUGH AT THIS! SO FREAKING ADORABLE! ((:

Honestly, i miss everyone from last year's batch. When i read on how much they're stressing over O's, i'd feel such a deep embarassment. I'm a year away. Such a diss.

I miss Aizat, I miss being around him EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL. He was like my husband or something, always around.

These girls are still awesome. I miss them still.

oh, and sumpah i miss a few of the LFDs. PLUS IZUAN AND FAIFAI! (((:

They're still my bestfriends. Hopefully, in the years to come, we'll still be with each other. Gosh, i'm getting all teary eyed. I wanna work and have money!

School's been better. I study more now, really. All thanks to Ms Hannah and Mrs Koh. SHIAT, now i remember, i didnt do my art.CRAP. I have to do it naoooooooo i guess.

I love adib syahiran! ((((:

2010-07-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

Kalau susah nah nak bace, it is written, "I LOVE ASHIQIN!!!!! HEHEHE"

All typed out by Salihin Nyet ((:

This was before he had the guts to say it all out to Ashhy. I'm glad they're together. They're sweet.
I love you guys, mwah.

2010-07-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

So, we celebrated Adib's belated birthday on the same week as his birthday but Saturday, it was rocky because nothing went as planned but syukurlah, Syafiq and Mira came afterwards. Thanks ashhy and ein for accompanying me before that.

Pictures will elaborate.

Adib said he appreciated the "birthday" celebration. Hope he meant that he loved it. I love you!

((:

Sold most clothes already.

2010-06-29T02:53:00.000+08:00

I'M CLEANING UP

MY CLOSET (:

ABLE TO

EXCHANGE-SWAP

The remainings!

TOPS:

Green floral cropped top

Been used twice (Quality 8/10)

Fits size S/M

Selling for $8

Checkered pink and blue cropped top

Been used once (Quality 8/10)

FREE SIZE

Selling for $8

BOTTOMS:

High waisted pencil skirt

Never been used (Quality 10/10)

Fits size S/M/L

Selling for $10

Pinkish purple skinnies

Never been used (Quality 10/10)

Fits size S/M (36-39)

Selling for $10 (NEGO)

Cotton On Denim Shorts

Never been used (Quality 10/10)

Fits size M/L (Size 12)

Selling for $20 (NEGO)

DRESSES/ LONG TOPS:

Grey long sleever dress - pockets

Never been used (Quality 10/10)

FREE SIZE

Selling for $12

Floral dress with collar (Reversible)

(Quality 8/10)

Fits size S/M

Selling for $10

Maxi sleeved dress - burgundy and cream

(Quality 10/10)

FREE SIZE

Selling for $15 (NEGO)

HEY BARBIES AND KENS,

I'm selling my lime green mini crumpler. It's still very durable and new.

Selling for $25 (NEGO).

I'm selling my coleman and co pump!

Instead of this python skin, mine is grey and black checkers.

About 5inch heels.

Fits size 5-6.

STILL FREAKING NEW.

Selling for $18.

NO REFUNDS, NO EXCHANGING ONCE SOLD.
I am no liable for any damage after the item has been passed.
Okay, thanks (:

2010-06-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, the one who means the whole world to me, Adib Syahiran. Just because you're 19, doesn't mean vendors and stallholders won't ask for your I/C. You still look like a small girl. I love you <3 x a gazillion generations ((:

I love you baby, happy birthday. You're out now with small person :D I hope its a blast because you have got to be happy today!

It's only two, felt like i've been up for a whole day. I'm skipping school tmr. Not because I dont want to do my homework, or am sick of school, i just want to spend time with baby on his BIRTHDAY. Some people are going to think i'm wasting my time doing all these when i can study and do it afterwards. But i'll regret later.

I've done my homework! I just need to finish up math and do my freaking english book promo. Like which other troublesome school still does book reviews and promos?

Anyways, i need to add more things to my canvas. Apparently everyone's canvases are in school. Mine's at home! Hahahah. Today was the first day of school and we got lashings during art. Ms Serynna just hasnt seen what i've been up to during the holidays. I cant wait to finish my canvas! She did the 'whatever your reason, i dont give a shit' face when i told her i stayed in school for a while then went home. She kept talking about the teachers having a life. I kinda felt sad, but there was no way i could've attended school, not without my dad in the way. Like anyone cares! Hahah. I love Ms Serynna, just not when she's being the ultimate bitch when everyone's just fooling around. We have got to buck up.

I really cant repeat my mistakes again, hahah, seriously. I started doing my homework sial. It's a change. Hahha. I go home straight too! Well too much say, it's just the first day.

I have decided that i shall forget you, yes you. There has been no time in a day that i've thought of you. I know how much all these putting up with me and entertaining me were just pretend. I know very well what you're actually looking for. I thought you were a great friend, i sought so hard to see you true. Damn it, i hope life sends jitters to you everyday because of how assholic and slutty you've reacted. You're no piece of my mind anymore. Goodbye O.

2010-06-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

Sup.

My family and I didnt get to go to JB yesterday. Apparently my brother met an accident during his last soccer match against gombak. The guy literally kicked my brother, right in the face. What a bummer, i was craving pizza the whole two weeks, and since the jb trip was canceled, i spent my night in the hospital. Nothing serious though. But his face resembles some fat pokemon. Swollen and bruised face, cant help it, it's too scary.

Since yesterday sucked, i'm going to update my blog.

Honestly, deep down my head, I'm virutally standing on a line, it's seperating me from seeing how much more i can take and simply g-u. I hate to do this silent treatment. I hate to ignore.

Nuff said about emotions. My blog items are selling so slowly. I think it's because my items are uninteresting. I threw many of my clothes away.

Gahh, how I wish it was still holidays. It's ending in less than 5 hours. SOBSOBSOB.

Anyway, hospital toilets are like so freaking big and clean. I love the toilet! And it's so freaking cool because the sign outside the toilet door is like, "MALE/FEMALE" so it's like anyone can go in there. You may be waiting for your turn to pee whilst sitting on the toilet bowl, when someone has already peed standing up! Get it? Nvm,it just amuses me.

I WAS HAVING SUCHA NICE QUIET ALONE TIME IN THE TOILET, CAMWHORING <3

Okay, cherios. Gotta get ready for my freaking school.
Mwah, night babies.

2010-06-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

I was listening to the phone a few minutes back. Apparently the phone functioned so that all the love songs would play. I got frustrated. Keep glancing over my shoulder. Where's that message? Fuck the honeymoon period because the aftermath's a whole load of shit.

I just want to say sorry and make you feel better. But you're showing signs of giving up.

And you make me, wanna give up.

So everyone's been talking about bitches. The same old story again. If it really bugs people that other bitches are bitching, then why are you paying so much attention again?

Please don’t make me wait, just because you know I will.

My babycake.

2010-06-24T19:23:00.000+08:00

So today, i got angsty. I argued with adib, AGAIN. Hehe, my fault lah.I talk too much. Anyways, i spent my past weekend with baby. He was awesome. While planning my weekend, we ended up quarrelling, but like who doesnt sey.

So my friday was spent with him. Watching three movies altogether. Except for the jackie chan where we werent really watching. Hehe. Then Ija and Hakim joined us. Hahah, i cant get Ija outta my head. She's so small and sweet but loud and funny.

Saturday was spent for mira's birthday. After going home, me and bb met ein then we watch niyang rapik. more like niyang merapek.

The other days mcm shitz.

I just wanna thank baby and the seven bby boys and girls for making my weekend special.

Since my 'camp cum chalet' ended. I went home, my home sickness gone after that.

I love adib syahiran so much (: I love you sweetpea, sorry i keep getting angry. HUGZ.

Oh, and to Ee Cheekies, i found out about the accident! Hope you recover soon. Man, seram. Hugs.

Baiya.

VERY UNSUCCESSFUL DATE WITH GIRLS:

2010-06-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

VERY UNSUCCESSFUL DATE WITH GIRLS:

Okay, before you look at the pictures, look at who dominated the camera. Amirah the whore. Her pictures are like everywhere. And i thought that that was my camera. Bagus ah.

Oh, the last few photos of Amirah on her own posing with her fingers and hands, those are pictures of her tengah ikut IZUAN BAKRI. Fana. Amek kau.

THIS IS MY BINGIT FACE CAUSE MIRA KEEP TAKING PHOTOS OF HERSELF.

Okay, this last photo is us smiling like someone .. so semangat. Bastard lah kau mira.

Outing was shit. Didnt meet fira bbg. In the end mira stayed with me before i met codename, ono. Hahaha.
Oh, both of us got approached by banglas at lucky plaza. They thought we were filipinos. Assholes.

Okay, my blog's not dead. Bye.

Mira's belated birthday celebration at VivoCity.

2010-06-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

I had a hell of a day, thanks to all seven, Emy, Mira, Ashhy, Salihin, Syafiq, Khid and not forgetting my baby, Adib who made all possible. <3 LOVE YOU PEOPLE TO BITZ YO.

2010-04-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

So, hello cosmic-invaders.blogspot.com

I've not updated you since world war three. I have a crush on a young boy, he's as cute as a pig. Ahh, can't wait for him to grow up into a teenager.

Anyways, last saturday, LR went out with Ein and Y. Met Khidhir while he was marathoning. He's fast! Met Farn and Azmi afterwards. Then baby (:

It was, erm, worth the time. Not as fun. But yeah. I swear, whatever i ate the whole week stucked to my tummy and was left there for everyone to see. I was so boncet that day, i feel like i was ultra boncet that day, so sad.

Ashhy <3

Trying to seduce Ein wit my hair, and he goes, "EEEEEE!'

MY NEW SHOES! (: Sorry, bangge.

LR, 12

LR, 2.

LR 3.

Look at Ein, petrified boy.

The lovebirds squashed me. Grr.

Y <3 Botak, toyol, smurf. Hahaha!

Mira <3

Emy <3

The girls. (Y)

LR plus Ein and Y. Y looks like smurf.

<3 these girls to bits.

After meeting Azmi and Farn.

I've got pictures wth Farhan and Azmi. But my phone yet again. Grr.

That was saturday. I want to post about my recent dinner with my parents and sister and but my phone's a bitch so i cant upload. so sad.

Okay, shall blog soon, see you love. Mwah.

Assalammualaikum.

Okay, shall stop here.

2010-04-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

I don't like it when i'm having a silent quarrel with Adib, really. Because i always feel like i cannot do anything.

Susahnye.

Anyways, i miss my long hair.

I like my nose, hate my eyebrow, hate my eyes, hate my cheeks and chin. I wish i was skinny.

I wish adib would look at my pretty face then forgive me each time. But i'm not, that's why i need to solve and apologize. I hate me. myself. me. myself. I have a very low self esteem and i hate it.

No FMLs for me because i love my life, i just hate me.

EEEE, EMO MAN. Shut up ah. cbnb.

I'm going to watch tv again. Off this shitass computer.

Argh.

Assalammualaikum.

2010-04-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

OKAY, I LIED. I'M TOO BORED.

I BLOGGED AGAIN.

I'm too bored!

Assalammualaikum.

2010-04-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

Eh, sup.

I'm bored as hell today. Because everyone's out for the moment so I'm home alone.

I've been singing Christina Aguilera's Hurt like an awful lot since i woke up. Gosh, why?!

Hahah.

Anyways, been facebooking and I'm stll bored as hell. Idk what t do. Seriously. I advertsed my blog on fb. Hahaha. But i just removed it.

I miss Ms. Fernandez, so much. I used to like dread to see her because i couldnt cope with literature but now, when i see it, i wish she was here to push me. She was the only teacher i feared to open my mouth to. I mean like, i was so afraid to answer her questions and talk to her. She must have been testing me the whole time, to speak up and participate in class. Ohman.

Okay, skip.

Mr Kong, my biology teacher, in camp. with a dragonfly dring our trek. Hahaha, he look lke pikachu. Hahaha!

The truth is, i've ot more than a hundred pictures from camp, i'm just too lazy to upload 'em.

To Nurul Musfira Awi

I miss you so much, idk why, i've been thinking a hole lot of you. Congrats, on your successful patch up? Hahaha, picked the right one, i guess. Guess aje eh.

Lastly, i would like to tell my mummy, that i love her so much. Though i'll never write her a letter, like how Mrs. Osman did to her mum. Or apologize openly. I'll never tell my mum that i love her to her face, my family has never been the open kind. But i know that she knows that i love her so much and i know that she does too. If ever i've broken your heart, i'm sorry. I know words are nothing, I will prove to you that i'll have a future and that i came from a good background, because of you. Thank you so much for helping me eventhough you know thethings i want arent necessary. For always saying no, nagging but giving in to me in the end. You may weep at korean dramas, dance and sing in the kitchen, joke about your dentures and act like a sister. NO MATTER HOW YOU TREAT ME, HO YOU LOOK AND HOW YOU ACT, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY MOTHER.

I love you, mummy ((:

Will facebook and tweet now. Mwahmwah, will update soon.

Assalammualaikum.

Hairpee tieurms. Roti prata rules and teen titans are my children. Beat my nonsense, please.

2010-04-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

Hell to the-o people. I'm online, like after millions of days. My blog's honestly boring and i got spammed twice this year. I've got enemies, so soon? ):

Was supposed to go out ith family today but everyone was lazy so we stayed at home. My sister, butt itchy as always, went out with Naz. In the evening, me, my brother, mom and dad, ordered KFC and ate together for dinner. I ate three bowls of porridge in the morning so I must say, i had a big breakfast and dinner.

The day before, we had cross country, I didnt bring my camera because i had a feeling it would be undesirable. I mean, i didnt have any good feelings. The anticipation was there but the determination was very well diminished the day itself. I'm so unhappy because i got myself into the 21st position. And it's like so wasted because i could have been happy in the 20th position. Hahah, but fret not, i was happy afterwards cause e, mira and emy bought brunch at woodlands to ate at mira's house. We karaoke'ed, movie'd, chatted, joked and laguhed a lot. Ashhy joined us afterwards and i left to meet baby. Bertambahnya stress saya, takut buat Adib marah. Hahahaah. I swear I dont like it when baby give me this, "WTF, I'm so angry. I'll try not to show it" face. But you can obviously see he was angry. Tak sukenye, i'd get frustrated and irritated. Hahah.

I got to know about some stuff on Thursday and I'm kinda angry and disgusted. I dont know how you can throw yourself to all the guys. I mean like seriously. You publicly tell everyone that you'd be faithful. Guyfriends have limits, you should learn those boundaries and act like you're taken and not everyone's girl. Don't you feel ashame when all the guys touch you? And you, i'm so disappointed in you. You've changed and you're filthy. Never come near my two bestfriends again! Malefuckslutshitasswipeholebitch.

Okay, i'm done.

We went swimming during the hols, yeah i know so long ago. Updating now. Hahah. Had a blast swimming and eating. Lr made it possible, mwahmwah.

This is after the swimming session, at night when we met Syafiq, hahaha. Here's the pictures.

Salihin looks so cute, like small boy. Too bad, i'm like the cutest.

Syafiq's NS id. Hhshahaha.

Rashid's id. Hhahaa!

Y's botak, so cute. Mcm toyol (:

Here's the picture from going out with my sister, mom and auntie.

This pictures, were from me and baby's date on 27th March, after his match with woodlands.

I love you baby, you looked great and i lovelovelove you again.

Mwah.

Overall, i had fun in all the occasions.

Oh, updates, i'm going out with mummy tomorrow! Might watch baby's game against nfa at jbs. Will be getting my vans shoe next week! Hasif asked me to join him fly kites on saturday next week and i'm planning to meet Darni after his long leave to indo. He's finally back! Might be visiting Effie's grave and grandma's.

I miss my grandma, i still feel like i could have done something. I still owe her everything. I miss you, Dadi, sumpah, i really do.

Mwahmwah, will go to sleep now.

Will update soon.

Relinked and upated blog song, and picture.

Assalammualaikum.

2010-03-30T14:56:00.000+08:00

I never knew this picture existed. This was the time when i was still one whole side parting. Hahaha, me and my spectacle. Who knew i'd evolve like this. Ah, the transformation. Okay, i wanna thank my co form teacher, ms hannah today for being so helpful and letting me have the permission to leave school early, at 1020. Cool or what. I got myself an appointment at the new yishun hospital for my eye. So close sey the place, yay!

Okay, got myself new eye drops to last till my appointment too. Andand, i'm off to meet adib for he is going soccer and home's a place of boredom. Lovelove you guys.

Oh, and i updated my blogskin, tagboard and links, yay!

Assalammualaikum.

2010-03-20T11:31:00.000+08:00

How can you all lose it? I overheard you guys questioning if it was a gift. If you guys already know, then why didn't you take care of it? Why?! You don't know how much it means to me. Buying another one is meaningless. I feel so upset. So fucking upset.

2010-03-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

Went out with bby on Wednesday. Spent e whole day with him. Got grounded wen i got home because i was irresponsible. But it was so worth it! I love you, Syahiran (:

TRIAL AND ERROR, yay! :)

Going swimming with e girls in awhile. Cant wait (:

Assalammualaikum.

2010-03-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

This are two pictures after i dyed my hair black. This was before camp and i was muchmuchmuchmuch fairer thenThe one on the left was before i cut my longlong balck hair and right, vice versa. You dont know how much i miss my hair. How much i miss my long brown hair. I miss it so much because that was the only thing i would wake up and be worried about. Sheesh, benci rambut aku ni ):

This was our latest lr outing. Flea marketing at .. hahaha. Will be going again on Saturday, yeah? Will be going swimming with e girls on Friday. Cant wait. Syafiq's cmoing back on friday?! Yay! I'm too lazy to post other pictures so i only post two, the rest is on facebook (:

Oh, baby drew this for me. Ah-ah, aku proud sampai nak tunjuk satu dunia.

Me and love will be going on a date tomorrow, yay! Idk where the hell we're going but i'm so happy because we've not gone out together for so long. I mean, go out, go out. Not slack and play cards. Hahaha. I love you baby (:

Emy, remembe this cat? Ya, i brought him home! *jk (:"

To NANII' KEAI : STFU AND GET LOST PATHETIC FCUKSLUT. Hehehe.

Assalammualaikum.

I hate school, i hate school.

2010-03-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, i dont just hate school because i have to study. I hate school because everyone's so bitchy. I swear it's all true. People who i know, and didnt expect such thing to happen, they actually bitch about someone else. I wonder which is more pathetic. Looking innocent but an ultra stinky attitude, or talking about someone when you're stooping even lower to commit such act. What's wrong with you people? I mean, seriously. Nbss sucks and i hate the atmosphere in school. Especially when people use names to hurt you, laugh at you, pretend to be nice to you and also when they're just some loser who's trying to look and act cool. Gangster tak gangster, you're solely still human. Lawa tak lawa, we're all still going to school to pursue our education. Fucking vainfucks and youunglosers. You're all so pathetic, i kinda pty y'all. Eergh!

Urgh!

2010-03-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! Wait, i dont want to say readers anymore. Hello whoever :)

I checked my nuffnang. I only get 243 viewers this week. And i'm so sad because nuffnang always lie to me! I know it's so much lesser than that! Where are my daily readers?????! Grrrrr!

My readers arent faithful anymore. Where'd you bloghop to? Sobsob. Sodeh. Anyhoo, i'm gg school tmr! Yay! I'm getting better. I had fever and headache from last night till afternoon man. Such luck kan?

Okay, i'm gg to sleep now. Goodnight unfaithful readers. I want my faithful readers back! Oh, and to my "Fan" Aini Aziela, My blog's alive lah syg. I'll try update kay. And yeah okay, i'll take up your suggestion and type out what i'm wearing and where i bought it. Haha, cute lah you! Tag my tagboard okay? I dont check msn most of the time lah :)

Okay, will go text my darling boyfriend. And sleep after that.

Lotsa lovelovelove,
Anna Banana Papaya Jackfruit Strawberry Menace With A Cherry On Top!

Assalammualaikum!

* Please press my nuffnang adds guys! Lovelove.

Wireless!

2010-03-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

Okay, my handphone doesnt allow me access to the text alignment of uploading of pictures, so this post will be boring.

I'm absenting myself from school today and tomorrow. I've got two days of mc because of my eye infection. Emy, i didnt even have to ASK for two days, i got it! Anyhoos, i found out that i really have ulcers on my right eyelid. But i didnt know i have a cut on my left eye.. Gggrrrrrrrr, contact lenses' are such a pain in the ass. Really. Troublesome nak mampui. Yeah, so i'll just update till here because i dont know how to navigate this crap on my phone.

Assalammualaikum!

2010-02-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i would like to show my utmost gratitude to my current classmates from class 3E4'10!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CELEBRATING MY BRITHDAY!

I was actually VERY surprised!

The most I had thought was, you guys were going to sing me a birthday song!

And having TWO BIRTHDAY CAKES FROM YOU GUYS, I was nothing but ...

EXTREMELY SHOCKED!

These are the two cakes that taste almost the same. Hahaha. Blueberry topping and chocolate-coffee cake. Ahh, thanks guys! (((:

Anyhoos, Mira got me this erm, doll. Hahaha. Okay, she called it sally. And she scared herself with the doll. I did too!

After talking to Mira and Ashhy, i went home.

I thought i was gg to spend the rest of the day at home.

But emy said she was meeting me with Y.

So when they came, i went down.

But Adib was there too! Hahah.

Talked and went home shortly after.

When everyone came home, my family brought me to Yishun for dinner at Pastamania. I didnt wanna go there, but my dad wanted to try it.

Another birthday cake!! (:

I love everyone who made this celebration possible. Mwah!

Yet, i'm still unhappy about this. Lol.

Yesterday, 26 of feb, a day after ERICA'S BIRTHDAY!! (:

I didnt turn up for school because i was tired. Apenye excuse je, so disappointed in you ANNA! Urgh.

Anyways, met Ashhy, Mira and Emy at Rubinah's at 3. Talked and talked. Then Syafiq appeared. I was like, okay .. Then Khidhir appeared. I was like, bigger okay .. then Adib and Salihin reached! And i was like, OHMYGOD! They came to celebrate my BELATED birthday. I was yet again, sincerely shocked!

Ashhy made me a birthday cake. It was a CHEESE CAKE! She baked it with her lovely mom the day before. She was all emotional about it. And i jus kept quiet because i knew if i were to say anything I'd cry! So i said my thank yous and cut the cake.

That is Mira's tongue. Grrr. Hahaha.

Thank you! Salihin syg, for footing the bill. Amirah for getting not one but three gifts. Emy for partially paying for the dress. Ashhy for the gathering and wonderful cake. Adib baby, for the gift and for showering me with love since i'm so bloody irritatingly manje. Syafiq and Khidhir for being present! I love you guys. It was so awesome. I can finally ackowledge my sweet sixteen as bittersweet! ((((:

For my dear girls (:

Ashhy: Honey, i know you spent the most effort in doing all these things for me. I dont know what i've done or if i deserve all your attention and hard work but i can say that all these years, what i've done for you, i never needed you to repay me. And what the great lengths that you went through for me, i cant stop saying that i love you and that these are much more than whatever it is that i've done. Andand, thank you for going through so much just to make sure i was happy. Thank you.

Mira: Syg, i know you love me so much. And i know you miss me so much. I know you know what i'm going through so you dont have to scared of me anymore! Thanks for the three gifts. Only the fan is useful, but the other two serves memory purposes so i love it so much. I love you.Thank you.

Emy: Stupid girl, thank you for being there for me these two whole months like never endingly. I dont need a gift from you, so your card was pleasantly enough! I love you. Thank you.

In the end, i got four cakes for my birthday, and i'm so happy. Eh, eh, i bought a new dress from cotton on! And i got a donut fan from Mira and baby gave me a perfume and body wash which name i cannot hafal. ELATED MUCH!

Thank you everyone for the wishes and everything. I love it all so much.
HAVE A PLEASANT WEEK AHEAD! (:

Oh, before that. Happy Advanced Birthday to Ain Natasha cum Ainicynerdoll! Happy 15th birthday girl, you've been awesome and i love your voice! Enjoy your bday week love :DDDD

Assalammualaikum.

Birthday webcam!

2010-02-19T20:13:00.000+08:00

Goes in order like this:

#1 pic: Smile Syak.

#2 pic: SHAH! OMG.

#3 pic: Shah says, "take our picture!"

#4 pic: "tak our picture!" AGAIN.

Thank for the birthday song guys. And Syak, your sister's gorgeous. Jealous siaaaaa.

Assalammualaikum.

Valentine outing @ Marina Barrage.

2010-02-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

I'M TURNING 16 SOON!

Few more hours and haiyaaaak! Birthday nya aku (:

So here's the pictures of the picnic. It was purely lovely because the scenery was nice, the air was nice, the food i cooked was NICE, the people surrounding me were nice, UGH, NICE LAH!

The valentine's outing wouldnt have been successful without the presence of Salihin, Khidir, Syafiq, Emilia, Ashhy and Adib! It was made even wonderful when we met Fira and Maisarah. But then again, all wouldnt have been possible without me palnning! Bleahh -.-"

TO ADIB:

Anyway, my valentine was gorgeous. He came prepared in our uniformed colour. Ah, honey, i love you. Thanks for the gifts! Though the Toblerones melted, the drawing you drew of me, was exceptionally brilliant. And the Volcom dress that i'm always imagining is green, is beautiful. You dont need expensive gifts to please me. Your letter moved me. Your presence was the best that i got and i treasured every micro mini spent with you. I hope we'll stay strong throughout this year. I love you very much Adib. Thank you for being the best valentine date in the entire universe.

I'll be taking off my eyebrow piercing the night of my birthday, which is tmr. Tmr's gonna be hell though, cause they aint celebrating my bday cause it's exam week. Such luck. Gonna get a tub of cookies and creme ice cream and catch some sob korean show.

Good luck with your CAs & tests & exams dears! And to everyone else, have a pleasant day!

Assalammualaikum.

2010-02-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hey love!

It's been, idk. Twenty years since i last updated. School's been shitty because i got issued more than 8 demerits this week. I dont wanna tell you how much i've gathered all together. Damn shitty. I have to serve three days of in-house suspension. All because of a mofo. Grrr!

Anyhoos, chinese new year celebration in school was, erm, cute. Hahaha. Dancing was expected and it was, alright. Choir was adorable. There was like two boys, hahaha.

I'm going out for belated valentine's date with Adib and the rest tmr. Mira said she couldnt join us so it'll be the seven of us only. I'll update on this occasion with pictures (: We're picnicking on marina barrage. I bought very nice belgian chocolates which i cant wait to share with them. I prepared for valentines a month before so i'm so prepared! I wonder what Adib got me though ..

Andandand, i'm turning 16 this coming FRIDAY! Not excited but very happy that i'll be turning a year older. My wish for this effing effed up year is for me to buck up and stop smearing my reputation. I've disappointed so many these two months, i'm so ashamed of myself. Such a disgrace. So yeah, i hope i can stick to my word. I'm going to ace this year. Promise you man.

Ms Fernandez is in the aeroplane right now. Reaching Australia soon. I miss her so much and i'd like to express my gratitude to her by showing her my EOYs later in the year.

2010-02-02T13:54:00.000+08:00

Currently in art class. Damn, it's been so long since i last updated!

I kinda just got back from camp too. Kota tinggi was, err, fun?

I got very much darker. I've got sun burns and marks on my legs. I've got mosquito bites too!

Anw, from my view in school, i can see all the youngyoung juniors, the lower sec guys entering the bus to go for their match.Best of luck.

WHAT AM I SAYING?

Assalammualaikum.

2010-01-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

I miss my long brown hair. I miss my shapier body. I miss my oil-free face and i miss being able to not care of how i look. I'm constantly looking into the mirror and i keep teling myself. I don't look like my pictures anymore. I'm ugly betty with my name on it on my forehead. I hate school cause my class is silent and even te girls seem t refuse to interact with me. I hate school and i hate 2010.

Attraction.

2010-01-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

She got uglier, everyone did. World. Opposites attract? They're so similar, we're so similar. Are you right?

Assalammualaikum.

2010-01-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored. Am currently doing the artwork for my mum menu piece. And it's so freaking boring. I miss Adib. I notice i say this too often on my blog, but i really do mean it. I saw this video from Dan's blog and i couldn't stop laughing! Hahaha.

New year's (:

2010-01-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

New year's eve with the adorable LR. I came ultra late at about 8, so i missed most of the fun. At least i got o meet them before they went home. I spent the rest of the night with Syafiq and his gila girlfriend and syahiran (:

GLAMOUR SIOL SYAFIQ! *Two thumbs up!*

Will post more of the day after pictures later or the next time i blog. Am busy doing my math and art *Winkwink*

Assalammualaikum.

Back to school.

2010-01-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

Hey darlings, i'm not yet back to blogging completely. My blog looks dead, so i'm updating it.
I'm back to school and sadly, i'm not populating my social circle. There's been so many changes and unfortunately, my class doesn't seem to keen in interacting with me. This makes it hard, it's beyond my nature to be silent. Is there something wrong with me that no one's willing to say anything? My predicament came true, how drastic.

Well, i spend new year's with Emilia, Y and baby. It was, erm, okay. Two days after, me and my family went to jb for lunch and dinner. On sunday, a day before school, LR went for Shafie's brother's marriage ceremony.

First day of school, was a wreck. Second day of school was demeaning but bearable. Third day of school was wonderful and the other days were a chore and exceptionally lonely.

Today's a special day. I should meet Adib. Happy belated LR's day! Gosh, my blog posts are getting monotonous and boring.

Ugh, i'm going out to meet Adib now. I dyed my hair black, it's ugly.

Assalammualaikum.

2009-12-29T03:40:00.000+08:00

I found out a lot of things today. And sumpah, aku marah betul. Betulbetulbetul. I'm awfully angry at almost everyone, okay, maybe just a bunch.

Today, i found out that Fazlinah told Attika that I had a problems with her. Ya Allah, Faz. I'm really angry at this because, i really like Faz. Well, you get it in terms of how, yeah? And, for all i could remember, Faz was the one who was close to Hasif then, and she was the one falsely telling things to him that i never knew i was capable of. I never took this as much of a big deal. And that story was so 2007. In fact, i didnt even think it was a problem. I never knew you had something against me, and whether you still have, something against me. Is that why you're not always communicating or assosciating with me during netball and school? Haiya, sedihnya aku. Sedihsedihsedih.

And today, i found out that two of someone i thought i could trust, totally lied and told on me. Kata keep secret! Bohong je, bohong je. Bahalol tol. I didn't break your girlfriend up with you la, pokey. And you, kata jangan bilang si dia tu. Duadua boleh kahwin, eeee, benci.

Anyways, beside my nonsense. I had netball training in the afternoon. 2-5pm. Was refreshing. Court's enclosed so, alhamdullilah syukor, i didnt get heat stroke or darker.

Will be meeting Adib tomorrow, later i mean. Gosh. It's been so long!

Ouh, and i made new friends online today, and i'm very happy!

Can't wait for new year's eve.

Assalammualaikum.

2009-12-27T04:37:00.000+08:00

When i was MIA, i did this.

2009-12-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

Sleepless nights, i needa meet Adib A.S.A.P!

My year, 2009.

2009-12-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

This is the fourth post today. I have the whole lappy to myself today.

I'll be going out with Wawan tomorrow. We're going to lunch-early dinner together. I don't know where we're going. I'm kinda excited, but i'm also very lazy. My flu, is almost non-existent and my throat's not so sore. I really miss my boyfriend. I think, this is the first time i feel like i miss him so very much.

I feel like, it's been so long since i actually sat down and talk to anyone. I've been gossiping, laughing, discussing, bitching and complaining since November and this Dec, and i've noticed. I haven't planned out my 2010 with anyone or even myself yet. I'm psyched that the year's ending and I'll be a year older and everything. But with school, which at this rate, is my only responsibility and practically my life. And which I'll be repeating next year, I haven't thought of school much, because that unhappy beginning that started a day before the last day of school, got many people talking and i honestly had enough of thinking of it. I'll keep all my futuristic plans on my studies to myself, i don't need a million aunt agony to tell me what to do.

I've been basically no role model to anyone this year. Honestly, I saw this coming, i just couldn't accept it when it happened. You should've seen me, skipping class, not coming to school, purposely going to classes late, not studying, sleeping in class. And when exams were round the corner, i did nothing but stare at the book. I believe, I thought Santa would pluck a cable into my USB enabled head and transfer me all the required information.

I believe I was dumb. Yes, originally dumb. My english literature essays of many words kept decreasing to the minimal amount. My language compositions that were once in many times complimented and shared, became boring and only passed potential foundation in language. My math that was capable of a pass before, became a numeric one digit. My science have always been on one end. However, Biology always kept me nearly passing. But after my continuous procrastinations, i started failing my science combi, with big Fs. My malay however, kept improving. Day by day. I was more hardworking on my what i thought was more important, Art. But in the end, nothing mattered. All that mattered was the EFFORT IN ALL OF THEM. From the beginning till the end of year. And I, did not put in any. Nothing was balanced. So, i never moved up.

Now, it doesn't seem like much of a big deal. My priorities have been set straight to successfully be in comparison with my new year's resolution. Although i've lost a lot of chances to freedom and trust, i've acquired a mind set and the ability to somehow close my eyes and shun off possible ill thinking that might bring me down. I believe it will all be gained back after i've put in effort. Well, that all will only be determined if i really stay true to my words and sincerely change.

This year, started off awfully, but everything that happened this year, has been a blessing, be it something unfortunate or joy. Everything is a blessing, only interpreted in different ways. This year, I cried at least twice a month. This shows that this year's been rather demeaning and maybe sometimes, it came off as very pressing and pressurizing. But I'm happy i pulled through with the help and support of family and friends. Alhamdullilah, they have always been the one pushing me and advicing me. I know, that if it weren't for them, i would have been in a worse state or I'd be less willing to accept all of these. Seriously, i'm very grateful to Allah, for making me endure all of these and learn from it. What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

And this year, i've made plenty of friends. From different ages and backgrounds. I've made many unhappy and i believe, i've broken many hearts too. My mother for example, for not living up to my promise and for disappointing her. Hasroy, for breaking what seemed like a very happy relationship. Syida, for not being a friend to her and only wanting to be one after she went through so many hardship. Emilia, for not being a role model like I'm supposed to. I know, i've made many people very unhappy, and i'm honestly sorry. Because of this, i'm strengthening our relationship. I've made friends who thought me nonsense but made me very happy and treasured; Bobby for bringing me to every corner in Somerset and for making my life a little bit more livelier. I've made myself dislike a person and allow that person to have a mutual feeling. I don't hate anyone, really. I've shared joy, love and laughter with my classmates who were more than bonded and LR who changed and matured a lot since the past year. And also LFD, who in the beginning were a big part of our lives, but eventhough they slowly disappeared, we sill shared many happy moments together. My boyfriend, Adib Syahiran, we may have more to look forward to but the past days, weeks and months have been worth while, every second of my life and you've made me look at my problems as something small and you've made me appreciate all the other things. I've cried and shared my stories to people i never knew i could open up to. I'm glad, i'm glad all these happened. It got me here now. And those people, they played a big part growing me into now.

I'm admitting, i'd be lying if i said, i don't care for anyone's thoughts. Be it about me or themselves. I care very much about everyone, sometimes, a lot more than for myself. Looks, may seem superficial and unnecessary. But i tell you, they, are the most important thing in life. As important as your heart. How you carry yourself, creates and carries impression. It controls how much people talk about you and how much you need to care. Being accepted in society or a group, is not life, it's just part of life. You don't have to try so hard, just be sincere, be yourself. You don't need to revamp yourself so that others may like you. You don't need to have a 1000 friends to be normal. I have friends who accept me, in any way that i am. And yes, i try to look good for myself. Everyone is perfect, we're just different.

I believe i'm now, a little more confident and honestly, i really love EVERYONE, Abdul Razak, Priyanuch Aubontip, Jellinnan Razak, Muhd Lutfi Razak, Adib Syahiran, Amirah Zainal, Ashiqin Suhaimi, Emilia Feryna MJ, Hasroy Ruslan, Aizat Tajuddin, Firdaus Vailani, Museey Mustakim, Khidhir Suharto, Syida, Mahirah Jalil, Hanis Hamid, Muliady, Izzuan, Faisal Hamid, Syafiq Abu Bakar, Nurul Musfira, Hanisah Nordin, Junaidah Rasol, Erica Devi, Vivian Eu, Deena Nabilah, Imran Zailani, Ramdan Rashiddee, Kai Leong, well, really everyone (: I'm happy i'm still alive and living.

Semoga semua berjaya and err, have a brighter future. Next year's going to be awesome.

Assalammualaikum.

Najiah's so fucking rude!

2009-12-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

This girl, Najiah, she's so fcuking rude. Nothing wrong with malays what. I'll whack her when I see her. I don't see the need to criticise anyone at that matter. She's so bold and uncivilized.

2009-12-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

Mira syg, drew this picture for me. I love you Mira!

Adib, where are you?
I miss you siolszxszxszxszxszx!
Feels like we've not spoken to each other for eleven years. Eleven years kan baby? (:

I'm still sick, but I'm getting better. I'm meeting Wawan tomorrow, yay!

"What happened to dignity
Did it go away again?
Just like some worn out trend?
Will I still defend emotions?
What happened to honesty?
I don’t see it on the Top Ten
I only see it in what has been
Cause I still defend devotion

Am I alone?

Don’t wanna rest
I don’t wanna breathe
When I wanna hear about life
Don’t wanna hear a spokesman
I don’t wanna test
I want to believe
The god damn singer wrote the song
Don’t wanna hear a spokesman

What happened to integrity
I don’t see it on MTV
All I see is choreography
And I’ll never be a dancer
What happened to puberty?
Bad skin and insecurity?
And who the fuck is Felicity?
Cause I got problems of my own

Am I alone?"

- Goldfinger **Spokesman**

2009-12-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

Aaron is smexxy, smacking hot. His voice is, FUH!

He made me sexcited to watch the rest of his videos. Damn, hothothot!

I subscribed to his channel. Woowoowoo!

Monday's outingwith the girls, photos!

2009-12-15T02:25:00.000+08:00

Monday - 14 Dec.

Outing with 3/4 LR.

I'll post the rest of the remaining pictures soon, I'm very sick and need to rest.
Overall, the outing was better than expected. It will be muchmuchmuch more exciting and funny when all 4/4 LR's outing again, not to Mira's house though. Heeheehee.

Had my utmost fun moments today. Hope it will repeat soon (:

I love everyone, mwahmwah. Please keep my site meter moving. Will link or relink all of you soon, okay love? (: Ouh, please remain faithful in viewing my blog.

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Thank you, i lovelovelove you.

Assalammualaikum.

2009-12-14T12:12:00.000+08:00

I LOVE!

2009-12-14T11:20:00.000+08:00

Nobody, nobody but you. *Claps*

I'm sick, have i not said this enough? I'm pathetically sick. And ironically, I'm still going out. With 3/4 of the girls since Shushtheashhy couldn't make it. Hahah, shushtheashhy, get it? Nvm.

I don't know where we're going but i promise, there'll be loads of pictures. And i don't want to be the one behind the camera! ((:

I hope i get to meet my boyfriend. Or Wawan at least.

Have i told you how irritated i am with my flu? Oh, and not to mention, i am so irritated with people asking me about my studies when they aleady know. Especially this girl, by the name of F, she's so love sick and she's always only talking to me in MSN when she wants to point out my flaws or when she wants to bring me down. I don't know what i'm saying but, i feel like i'm slowly building up this hatred. Ugh, ya Allah, help me with my health and keep me away from all these nonsense. My head can't tolerate anymore questions.

I lovelovelove Obama.

Assalammualaikum.